DESPAIR
… despaired … listness … black …
… insanity … delusion … deterrent …
… dark and deep …
… far … far … far …
RAY
… a light beating …
… limitless possibility … hope …
… freedom …
The agony of living
and the hope that comes among being the agony…
Those are the faith among every living….
D’espairsRay
"Command Assassin Nykyrian Quiakides once turned his back on the League - and has been hunted by them ever since. Though many have tried, none can kill him or stop him from completing his current mission: to protect Kiara Zamir, a woman whose father's political alliance has made her a target. As her world becomes even deadlier, Kiara must entrust her life to the same kind of beast who once killed her mother and left her for dead. Old enemies and new threaten them both and the only way they can survive is to overcome their suspicions and learn to trust in the very ones who threaten them the most: each other"
It took me two days to read it and it was FUCKING AMAZING!! 560 pages of pure bliss, i will admit i have been putting off reading it. I have read all her Dark Hunter Series but this was a league book and totally different from what i'm used too from her.
In the Dark Hunter series you read about Daimons, gods and other creautes of legend. I just love the dark hunter series...serously i've collected them all and read them all and i plan to re-read them *laughs* But in the league series...it is set in a sci-fi world with lazer guns and space ships, now i love my sci-fi on tv but i've never been a fan of reading it..... hence the putting it off.
BUT i have finally read it and now i am kicking myself for waiting so long!
I absolutely love Nykyrain, i wanted to kill the bastards that hurt him through out his life! i know its not real but wow i would kick their arse! throughout the book i found myself wanting to shout at him for pushing everyone away... i wanted him to just be happy and he wouldn't let himself DX
Kiara the "damsel of the story" pissed me off at times when she was mean to Nykyrain, he was only trying to save her life damn it. but she has to be all pissy just because he killed a few people....boo-bloody-hoo... you are alive woman! be grateful!! but apart from that i thought she was awesome. She made Nykyrain happy even if she nearly got him killed....2 or 3 times
The other characters in the book were amazing, i loved them all. And they often gave a much needed comedy value. Syn and Darling were my favorites and i believe the rest of the series is about their life in more details which should be awesome. I already have Born Of Fire and i plan to start reading it soon. I just need to buy the rest of the league series and then i'm set!
Muses I have experience playing (with bandname):
Ruki (The Gazette)
Zero (D'espairsRay)
Tsukasa (D'espairsRay)
Yomi (Nightmare)
Sakito (Nightmare)
Ni~ya (Nightmare)
Jin (Nega)
Sono (Matenrou Opera)
Hazuki (Lynch)
Aki (OZ)
Satoshi (Girugämesh)
I'm sure there is more
Muses I would like to try playing (with bandname):
Show (Losh Ash)
Uruha (Gazette)
Others
Pairings I have played:
RukixKai*
KaixRuki*
HizumixRuki
RukixOC
ZeroxHizumi*
ZeroxKaryu*
ZeroxTsukasa
ZeroxSisen (Do not ask XD)
ZeroxMao
ZeroxGenki
ZeroxEros
ZeroxAkito
ZeroxRaidon~
ZeroxSakura~
TsukasaxKaryu*
ReitaxNi~ya
JinxYuu*
JinxSan
JinxRay
JinxGenki
AoixYomi*
ReitaxYomi*
RukaxYomi
SonoxYuu*
SakitoxOC*
TatsurouxAki
NatsukixAki*
SatoshixMyv
KodaxKyo
~OC
*Long Term RPs
I'm pretty sure Zero has had more people than that but i can not remember them all, most of them were requests for one shots
Looking for private roleplay or community? private roleplay
AU or Non-AU: both
Do you play Het, Yaoi, or Yuri? Yaoi
Highest rating of roleplay I will play (ie: NC-17, R, etc): Nc-17 and beyond
So last nights dream was weird and interesting, so i thought i would share.
It all started in my old high schools main hall, you know the place with all the chairs and the stage. It is where all the shows happen and all the boring assemblies.
The room was filled with people clearly not in their teens, all were sat on chairs squealing and laughing just like teenagers. They were all talking about what was going to happen..... It seems all the best jrock bands were going to be playing in this very room
Why they would choose a high school in the middle of England, i have no idea. But who am i to argue with the logic of dreams.
Anyway back to the dream.
The bands started to play and i soon lost interest, it was bands i did not care for. So i amused myself with rolling around on the floor and i soon became annoying to the people around me and i was sent out of the hall by a teacher...... Was the same bitch teacher i hated when i was in high school too...stupid cow. Where was i...? oh right
So i just got sent out of the room and i was told to sit and listen to all the wonderful bands i was missing... seriously how much of a bitch could this teacher be!?! Anyway i realized i was in trouble and i said "fine i'll sit out here but please let me back in to see D'espairsray" I begged this woman and finally she agreed to come get me when D'espairsRay were going to play.
Typical fashion i got bored and army crawled back into the hall to watch the bands play (fuck yeah! screw you teacher) Some how i managed to crawl all the way to sit in front of the stage just in time for Matenrou Opera to come on stage.....yeah this is when it starts to get weird
I sat looking up at Sono, who thought it was funny to pull weird faces at me so i did the same back to him. And because of Sono i didn't notice until the very end of the song Ayame wasn't playing a keyboard but instead was pretending to play one and Yuu was in fact playing a cello instead of drums... i don't remember the rest of the band, thank god. Through out the song there was a strange blanket covering some sort of bump of the stage and at the end of the song, Sono pull the blanket away to show a large mound of liquorice.. (okay just a little info about my home town, we are famous for liquorice and we are in fact the home of Haribo!! Woo us) Everyone looked confused then a tv came on, showing a birds eye view of the liquorice and it was in fact shaped like Eeyore from Winnie the pooh.......... Everyone clapped....seriously.. wtf Matenrou Opera....
Everyone started to get giddy because we all knew D'espairsRay were the next to come on stage.. I slowly bum shuffled closer to the stage and all the lights went out, girls screamed all that jazz. Smoke started to appear across the stage and things started to move in the smoke and it was of course DESPAIRSRAY!!!
At this point i had my chin on the stage and everyone was screaming as D'espairsray came to stand on the stage, lights slowly came of to show the boys wearing the outfits from love is dead....including the bird masks. Everyone at this point where going wild
D'epsairsray stood on the stage, simply staring out into the room. None of them made a move to get instruments or anything, suddenly music started to play and D'espairsRay started to dance.... and i'm talking gay arse DBSK dancing
(Just in case anyone didn't know what i was talking about......)
No one saw D'espairsRay dancing like DBSK as wrong and just sang and danced along with the band, yes it was there own songs playing just kind of pop style...
It was the most random dream to see...
D'espairsray in bird masks.. dancing DBSK style....
Opitcal Impression: Nothing special, The PV seems to revolve around the band but you see nothing of the band... let me explain.. Apart from a few off shots of a girl in school it is all centered around Gazette in a warehouse type building, yet all you seem to see of the band are hands and legs. I don't know if this is the point but i don't personally like it, it is off focus throughout. I Think it is suppose to be filmed from a security camera maybe that is why it is filmed weird?
For me the theme of the PV is over done both by Gazette and most other bands out there, I am sure they could of done a better style of PV to go along with the song
Auditory Impression: I found the first one minute and fifth seconds of the song boring, at 1:50 it caught my interest for about 30 seconds but then it slipped back into boring and repetitive. I expected better from Gazette, saying that... It is an okay song just not a single, it is an album filler at best.
